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[wingsandwill]

I don't understand how humans survive.

[Someone has a cold.]

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[wingsandwill.livejournal.com]

Perhaps you have not. However your ability in this area is greater than most.

[thelightbringer]

I could teach you.

[Although he can't teach him a natural talent, he can explain the logic behind it. Although he finds that he rather enjoys watching Castiel learn it on his own.]

[wingsandwill.livejournal.com]

I have attempted to learn.

[thelightbringer]

In a perfect world that you could write yourself, how would everyone interact, Castiel? What, exactly would you change about all these crazy relationships?

[wingsandwill.livejournal.com]

What is meant would be what is said, rather than redirection or what is seemingly code for something else entirely.

[thelightbringer]

You don't always mean what you say, brother.

[You're the liar angel, remember?]

[wingsandwill.livejournal.com]

I'm well aware.



But I do such only when necessary.

[thelightbringer]

It's never necessary. 'Convenient', I can buy.

[wingsandwill.livejournal.com]

Convenience is not a factor in my decisions, Lucifer, or I would still be a footsoldier in Heaven.

[thelightbringer]

[In return, Lucifer smiles, straightening a little and gesturing]

Good point. ...Do you want to know something, Castiel? I think you're the only other angel I can respect. I still think you're misguided about humans, of course, but... [a shrug, as if to say 'we can't ALL be perfect']

[wingsandwill.livejournal.com]

Why?

[thelightbringer]

[He notes Castiel's reaction, and feels something between amusement and regret over it. Castiel still expects him to lash out every time he speaks against Lucifer.]

Because you're not some blind soldier. You aren't goosestepping along to the tune of My Daddy Still Loves Me.

You risked everything for what you genuinely believed in. I respect that. I worried after...well, He made an example of me. I'm glad that you didn't buy into it.

[wingsandwill.livejournal.com]

If something is worth believing in, it is worth the risk of fighting for it as well.

[thelightbringer]

But you've seen how few beings believe that. Fear paralyzes even our brothers.

[he's quiet a moment, thinking.]

But what exactly do you believe in?

[wingsandwill.livejournal.com]

I'm aware.



Do you know what Dean called us? The group of myself, Dean, and Sam?

[thelightbringer]

[Lucifer shakes his head slightly, though he has a few ideas, a few teasing suggestions. But he genuinely wants to know, so he just listens, raptly attentive and silent.]

[wingsandwill.livejournal.com]

Team Free Will. We were, and are, fighting for allowing ourselves and others the chance to make our own decisions.

The right to do so is what I believe in.

[thelightbringer]

[There's a flicker of something in his expression, something quiet and very far from anger. It's not the answer he expected, and a year ago he would have scoffed at it.]

Free Will is the only thing worth dying for. [He genuinely believes that. He has suffered torture for that belief.]

Without it, we have no family, no individuality. Nothing else matters if you can't choose it.

[wingsandwill.livejournal.com]

Yes.



Without it, we and our actions are meaningless.

[thelightbringer]

That's why I stayed in Hell. I could have asked forgiveness, Castiel, and He would probably have taken me back in. But I couldn't make myself do it. Not after I realized what you just said.

But, having said that...I hope that you never pay the price that I did. If I had known what you believe when I first came here, I would never have let Raphael near you. And if she ever tries it again.... [He'd stop her. He would stand against another archangel, one that he loved in ways he never loved the lesser angels. Simply because he has craved having someone who gets it.]

[wingsandwill.livejournal.com]

I know what happens to me, when I leave here. Beyond what we all saw from Rei's vision.

[thelightbringer]

[Lucifer frowns, leans forward on his elbows. There's no point asking if it's anything good.]

How bad is it?

[wingsandwill.livejournal.com]

I don't believe He'll bring me back this time.

[thelightbringer]

What happens, Castiel?

[wingsandwill.livejournal.com]

There are more than souls in Purgatory.